Bed of Roses - Part 13

He thought deeply. He looked up and down. He scratched his head. He looked lost in thoughts of future that was in verge of breaking. He was scared and hopelessly miserable. He didn't know what to say or what to do to save his marriage. He did what he knew best.. running away from reality.

He turned back towards home, leaving me and his wife to destiny. I didn't care if he didn't listen to my words. But I felt hurt that he was giving away. Where was that guy who fought with the world, his family and me to be with her? Maybe he is lost somewhere beyond the clouds of hopelessness.

What has happened to the younger generation? They have discovered new inventions to lead life but they haven't found the cure to fix things. Why are they giving up on relationship so easily rather than keeping it stronger? Is life all about  not giving second chance?

He stopped in middle of the way and turned back to me. He stood still. He took small steps towards me. Every step he took, he gave me a sense of hope that things will work again. My niece will be happy again.

                                                **** Sorav's Part ****


What was I doing? My wife was leaving me. Our marriage was falling apart. She had already decided what she was going to do and didn't bother to even tell me. I was confused..shocked. My world was falling apart and I couldn't do anything to save it.

I couldn't leave her ever. She had become my drug as well cure without which I was nothing. I agreed to follow Aunt's Sheila's advice after she grilled me over and over again about the importance of the relationships.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 12

How do I make this man standing next to me with wide eyes understand that his wife is just going through love syndrome? Love syndrome! Sorav! Love syndrome! He didn't give time, patience, love and care. Alas! His wife was distancing herself from him, his love and life. She felt that she didn't deserve him. Every relationship goes through rough path. But the toughest part is how can one come out of it.

" I love Sherin. What did I not do for her? I bought her the best designer clothes; bought large villa; bought her swanky cars; earned lots of money so that I could fulfill all her dreams. I also let her work and carve her own name. Why isn't she happy?  Is this not enough for her?", Sorav said, sharing his feeling without understanding what had gone wrong.

These youngsters! You find two extremes where most of them only assume that they are always right and everyone else wrong or they blame themselves for the mistakes they haven't done. You only meet over confident people like Sorav or under confident people like Sherin. How do you make two people like them to understand the flow of positive energy?

Impossibly Possible! Sherin loved others than to bother about herself and Sorav loved himself too much to bother about others. Wow! Can such people fall in love with each other too? Anyway I need to get this skunk sorted with his tangled love life. My niece is very firm on her decision. But it is not impossible to change her decision.

"No! You are not understanding! Dumb Dumb! You have only satisfied materialistic aspects of life. You haven't cared to see what she wants. She only wants your love, attention and care. Yes you do care about her! You also love her more! But you never made her feel secure about herself. Love is all about giving and taking. She has given too much for you without any expectation. You haven't helped her realize her worth.", I advised.

He listened to each word  I said with full attention. But I doubt he had understood what I meant.  "You have to make her realize that first. She's not confident about herself. Make her feel that how much important she is to you. Then make her understand that you still love her and she is the perfect one who can understand you. Will you be able to do all this?", I said while I didn't get any positive signs from him.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 11

Aunt Sheila! Why was she here? Did Sherin send her to nab me while I was busy snooping her? Did Sherin get to know that I was following her? I don't think so. If she had understood my movements, she would have caught me red handed. Oh no! She did stop in between. Maybe she did realize that I was following her. But I didn't see her text or call anyone. Telephathy worked at this century too! Strange! I cannot believe it.

**** Aunty Sheila's part ****

What was he doing here?  Snooping my poor niece! Why? And how dare he does that? Why was he doing this snooping business?  Questions and more questions tapped my mind. It's interesting the way our mind works and comes up with questions we have no answer for.

Whatever it was, I had to find out the cause. I grabbed his collar and took him to a corner. "Why are you here?", I asked him, quite annoyingly. He turned white and tiny drops of sweat dripped from his face. He looked very scared. I could feel his heart beating faster. " I .. I... I wasn't doing anything.",he stammered. " I.. I .. I was .. simply..waiting for her.", he continued.

His answer didn't convince me. I looked at him sternly in order to get the truth out of him. He looked down and didn't meet my eyes. What was he hiding? Did he get to know her plan? I don't think this bonehead would have learnt so much about his innocent wife planning to hitch him with his best friend. Anyway I didn't give up. I made sure he spilled the beans to me.

" Hmmmm.. Ok fine! Sheila! You win! I was snooping her. She was acting strange from past few months. So I thought she was affair with someone and I was wrong. But what could I do? I thought I would surprise her and spend some time with her. Unfortunately she brings my best friends and gives her the gift I had presented to my dear wife. How should I feel?", he spilled everything to me. I was surprised. World has become complex. The insecurities and small misunderstandings in relationship have become common. Maybe we have started to give up. Maybe we have started to doubt people close to us.

I smiled at my niece's stupidity. I had to bring these dumb lovers together. I have to make them understand the importance of love. So I told him about everything. I told him the hidden truth behind his wife's strange behavior. I also told him about why his wife bought his best friend everywhere along with them. I also told him that if we didn't stop her, it would be too late. 

He was shocked.. like shell shocked. He tried to say something but stopped. I was sure that he wouldn't understand or believe it. I pressed his strong palms and told him," Don't worry ! We will find a way." He didn't seem to relax. He asked, "Why is she doing this ?" 

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 10

Our mornings have always been boring. This morning was nothing special too.  She carried on with her routine work as dutiful wife is supposed to do. I waited for my portion of attention. Well! She didn't seem to bother after yesterday's episode. Usually she would ask whether I was fine. Nothing affected her. She was normal except that she was ignoring me.

She served me best breakfast. She cleaned our house. She did everything but she didn't say a word. Sherin is other word for chatterbox. She cannot pass a day without uttering a word. The morning hours passed and she didn't say a word. She didn't say goodbye while we parted ways to our respective work places. Something has really gone wrong and I need to find out.

As soon I saw her walk towards office, I followed her secretly. I made sure that she didn't realize that she was being followed. I called my office for sick leave.She seemed normal. She walked into campaign office where she did clerical work of handling administrative tasks related to a Senator political campaign, It was ground floor office and I can get the view of her sitting down at her desk where she was getting ready to work.

She hardly took breaks. At sharp 5pm, she headed out. It was time for her to head back home. She walked couple of blocks without realizing I was following her. She stopped in between her journey. I immediately covered myself. I thought she found out that I was following her. It was a relief as well as surprise when she took a different route. Where was she going? Was this road to her secret sweetheart. 

She stopped at a small street side cafe. I waited for the bastard to come. I was going to catch that damn creature who was trying to snatch my girl. The much awaited person arrived. I was shocked. Sherin and Sarah! My wife is straight? Isn't she?  Why was I getting such thoughts?

No! I had to distract my thoughts, These flimsy thoughts are not good. Maybe they were meeting over friendly chat. Sherin and Sarah are good friends. Sherin needed a good friend. Anyway I was getting ready to leave. I was simply doubting my sweet wife. I had just started to leave when I felt soft hands on my shoulder. I prayed to holy God that I didn't get caught. I turned to see Sherin's aunt staring annoyingly at me.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 9

I hoped everything would turn good. That's what I wanted. Everything to go out  well for him. Why? God! Why do you do this to me? I only want him to be happy... that's all. Why? Why does my effort go waste? Sometimes I feel that I was born with trail of events that can proove me that I am unlucky to people I love.

Anyway he wasn't pleased to find her at this special day - our wedding anniversary. He was miffed when I gave his gift ( the gift was for me) to her. This seemed strange. He always found her presence addictive. I was surprised so was she at his strange behavior. He thrashed the flowers he had bought for me into the bin. Sarah left with flushed face.

I tried to call her. She didn't pick the calls and soon switched off her phone to avoid any of my irritating calls. I was angry with him. I was angry at the circumstances. I was angry at everything. I thought Sarah was the one. Now he crushed that hope too. I wanted to bang my hands on his chest. Then grab his collar and shake him to bring back his senses. Wasn't he happy with her?

                                                                            ****** Sorav's part  *****

What the hell was she doing ? It was their damn wedding anniversary. She had to bring Sarah into a celebration that was meant for only them. I had thought I would surprise her with intimate evening. But Sherin being generous woman bought along Sarah.
 
Why was she doing this to me? Why can't she realize that I want to spend some me time with her? Was she not comfortable with me? Was their love dying? Oh good lord! Did she find some interesting guy? Well! Obviously she would venture in such affairs when I never spent quality time with her.

I was trying.. trying to find every tiny bit of time to spend with her. She should give me chance to proove myself. Everyone gets a chance. Why won't I get one? Yes ! I was obnoxious complainer. I found absurd mistakes in her. I am trying to be imperfect. But now she was testing my patience. I had to find out the reason she was acting weird by bringing people  and distancing herself from me.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 8

She was the one. Sometimes I do envy her charm. How could anyone be so charming? How could someone blow anyone's mind easily by their talks or smile even though it may sound stupid? Well for me it is really difficult to even bring a smile to my mouth in front of him. And here Sarah didn't mind to laugh or talk or do anything she wanted effortlessly. 

Time and time, I do come across this very disturbing fact - I could now erase myself out of his life like erasing pencil markings with an eraser. He wouldn't remember when I would have been far.. faraway where grief stricken me would never loom over him. Only happiness would surround his life. He would forget the dullness, boring or anything that is related to me. 

I will make this work this time. I have to make this work. Sarah was my hope... A hope that would beckon the beginning of good life he deserves. I made sure that they share close relationships. I had to wrap my heart in small box and send it away to secret island where I will never see it again. 

I found one day a nicely decorated cake with flowers. It made my heart go 'aww'. I saw my darling busy preparing surprise. Suddenly I felt a tiny desire erupting inside me. I wished that I was the beneficiary of this surprise. Unfortunately it wasn't for me. Sarah had arrived and she hugged him, " Thanks love. I loved your surprise." 

The desire immediately popped like a bubble in thin air. I broke down. I failed to calm down my nerves. I hated myself for hurting me. But I have no choice. I don't want to leave him but he can't be happy with me.I cannot be the girl he desires and he cannot accept me as I am.  Life will be better for him now with Sarah.

Strange! I had become the Cupid for my love. I was trying to strike a relationship between them while breaking my own house. No wife should ever face this situation in their life. It's difficult to break down then automatically calm yourself to let your husband's surprise for his girlfriend doesn't go haywire.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 7

 The moon of the summer night was slight reddish white dot on the sky. It was one of beautiful sight that would calm my anxious heart. I sat, blinking at the sky. My heart urged to search answers in Google on how to hook your husband with the right girl. Unfortunately you don't find all the answers in Google. It was time to test whether Sara was the one. Most of my last choices failed this stage.

The test was simple. I bought Sara in every of our outings. I would create situations like friendly gathering or movie outing where I would ask Sara to join in. Sara would immediately agree while I thought she wouldn't agree. Why wouldn't she not agree? She was meeting her friend after so long.

When Sara arrived, his smile would be everlasting one. I had never seen him smile or have fun like he had when he was with her. It did pain. It does hurt when your love isn't happy with you. But it's okay. I am trying to be happy with his happiness. I don't want to ruin this one too.  

They did lot of fun things together. They would poke fun at each other. They would challenge each other in silly things of who had more momos in a minute or who could hold their breath inside water for a minute. Funny! It seemed like as if they had become kids again and I was just a nanny taking care.

I became an invisible person when they got together. I felt left out in their talks. They wouldn't consider me for any funny things they did together. It does break me. It stings my heart. But I don't let it affect me. I have learnt the art of pretense early in my life. I am used to being the 'Miss X' amongst the people. People don't really care if I am there or not there.  

Sara passed the test with full marks. She matched all those qualities of the girl he desired. I was going to let her replace my place in his life. Well! I never did have any place in his life. I hope he doesn't get disappointed by her. She was indeed the girl who would keep him very happy.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 6

I have to do something . But how? She was not letting anyone into her life. She was too closed. She was never seen around with her friends. Her sister knew too less about her. She wasn't sharing anything with me though I have always been her confidant for any matters of her life. If I pursued her to open more about her life, she would say little about it. 

I wanted to help her. Her low status was making it difficult. Why is she acting so stubborn? Can't she see that she was hurting herself ? What has this love done to her? Did love make someone lose senses to great extent? I couldn't see my baby hurt. Unfortunately I was watching helplessly at my darling Shirin's world collapsing. 

Yes! An idea struck me. It wasn't too late. I have to make sure it works. I have to create backups for the plan to be foolproof one. I also had to get that fool to make Shirin believe in her. However this wasn't possible as I shared sour-full relationship with her husband Sorav.

                                                            Shirin's story

He seemed happy. The smile.. It was bright to make my heart beat thousand times faster. I fell in love with him again. How desperate I was to see him smiling though he wasn't smiling at me. I had surprised him by bringing his long time friend Sara with me. It was a planned surprise. Sara and me had been planing this for long time. Sara was his school friend and she was meeting him after a long time. They had parted ways when their families had decided to locate at different locations.

This is what I wanted. A happy Sorav. I hated when he would crib on things that weren't perfect. Now he seemed so happy with her arrival. Well! I am just over thinking. I mean I haven't seen him so happy since we got married. Maybe this is what is called friendship. Meeting a longtime lost friend can bring the positive or happiness missing in your life.

Well! He was happy. This made me happy as well. Everyone gets a gift for their birthday. I had given him a gift instead getting one from him. The bitter truth- He had forgotten my presence since his friend had arrived. I felt slightly sad even though I didn't care him not wishing me - Happy Birthday. 

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 5

It was Shirin's birthday. As usual we were ready with her surprise like every year. Sometimes I feel that she is bored of these surprises. I know what she expects a nice romantic getaway with her loser husband. But he never had time for her. Every time we would throw a surprise party where we bring in all her old friends to wish her. Later we would lavish her with all the gifts she would have not wished for. She would accept them only to keep us happy and would start again with her famous dialogue, " I have everything in life. You don't have to do all these." However she would pine for him as he wouldn't have made anything special.

I hadn't heard a lot about her recently. She was keeping low and was not meeting anyone. I heard that she was into her crazy stint even after explaining her about how wrong she was. This girl! She would always do what her heart says. Why doesn't she listen to her head sometimes? She was breaking her own marriage. Anyway her birthday was only way to get to her.

The birthday surprise was nice. She liked it as usual. She accepted the gifts. Everything looked in place except one lady who seemed unknown to me. I mean I know all her friends. This girl! She didn't seem to fit amongst us. That unknown girl wore the right dress for the evening like as if she knew that she was expecting a party. She didn't seem interested in socializing with anyone of us. 

I didn't care but I was suspicious. Who was she? A new friend! She was definitely not her type. Anyway I tried to distract myself from these thoughts and enjoyed the party. The disappointment arrived ... the man of the house who else. But something happened . It startled me. The girl broke her icy self as soon as she saw Shirin's husband, Sorav. 

Damn!! Who was this girl? Why was she getting so close with him? Why didn't Shirin do anything? Any wife/ husband wouldn't like this proximity of any woman/ man with their spouse. Shirin was acting strange. She loved her husband so much yet she stood there doing nothing to stop that girl. Why?

I was annoyed. Shirin!! What was she doing with her life? She is a fool to burn her house down. I have to stop her. I have to stop her soon. I have to come up with a plan. A plan that would bring her back to her senses and also bring her love back.

(To be continued)