Love wrecked-part 1

It was not love at first sight for me. He was not my type. He was tall and scrawny guy with big grey eyes. But I did fell for him slowly. I was always cautious about these hormone induced feelings. Unfortunately I couldn’t control them. I wonder always how a good girl like me could do such a sin. Anyway, I cannot rectify this sweet mistake.

I met him when I was..ahem juggling books with my clumsy hands. It was cloudy day and the weatherman had predicted heavy showers any time during the day. I was getting late to college. As usual I was trying to fit the heavy Kotler text book into my bag. It didn’t get inside but it did tear my bag. Alas! My books came falling down. I got down the floor to pick them up. There he was, helping me with my books. My face became red with embarrassment. I didn’t look up at him. I was in mood of running away from him. “Hey! Wait! I can drop you to your college. I am taking the same route.” he said. His deep voice created a stir in my heart. I thought for some time and then took his offer to drop me. It was that day I fell for him. 

That day was not the first time I met him. He had come over to my house many times. He became favorite of my family especially he developed a connection with my mum. His down to earth and extrovert nature mesmerized many of us. Slowly and deeply I started liking him for what he was. However it was that day I had developed special feelings for him.

I tried hard to convince myself that it was just an infatuation. I knew it would fly away with time. But it didn’t happen. The feeling grew deeper within me.  Although I tried to concentrate my energies into something productive(like extracurricular activities and studies), I would find myself distracted towards him.

I wanted to do things that I wished I never did. I wanted to touch him, feel him, play with his hair or stare at his eyes except that when I was close to him, my desires stayed where they were. I would never try to get close to him. I knew this feeling had no future though staying away from him pained my heart.

(To be continued)