Bed of Roses- Part 27

Aunt Sheila watched me with stern eyes. It was like as if she was interrogating me. She hadn't been participating lately with our plan. She was busy with helping with her son's relocation work and also I didn't give her too many inputs. However I had reached end of my capabilities to stop the mishap. Now it depended on her.

She listened and didn't comment till I finished providing her the updates. When I ended my melodrama, she began her lecture, " I told you. You don't understand. She is smart....smart enough to understand your surprises. You should have given space." I sat as my mind drifted to other part of the world.

Her voice irritated me. The only way I could not get irritated was to distract myself. She didn't stop. She dragged and dragged the topic. If she ever participated in elocution, she would bag the first prize on speaking about how I was too illogical and insensitive for her niece.

Anyway I had to bear her for my love for Sherin. "Now we need to do something. This time you do my way.", she ended with the note that I should completely leave everything to her. It was funny to see her in light of fairy God mother. Unfortunately I didn't share good rapport with her.

" So we need to organise a party.", she said. "What! Party! Why?",I asked. I don't understand with Sherin's family's addiction to parties. There is party for any and every occasion whether it was good or bad according to them. These parties were usually surprise one. Aggh! So outdated!

"What do you mean why? Don't you want your wife back. The best thing we can do is pretend as if we were holding a party in name of my son's housewarming occasion. Then we can make her feel special and you propose her to marry you again.", she said. I argued, " I have proposed already and she said no. Did you realise that? Or did I just share boring story of someone else. You have already mentioned that giving surprises to her was not good idea." She looked at me as if she was going to gobble me up. Her rage looked obvious on her face.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 26

I wish he didn't say that. Those words ached my heart. I pretended as if I was not affected. I was hurt. I loved him too. I didn't want to leave him. But if I didn't leave him now,he would never be happy. I was the reason for his sadness and I need to stay away from him.

I looked at his pleading eyes and turned away. If I looked at those eyes one more time, I would not be able to do what is right. Love is difficult. It is hard to leave the one I love. He stopped me again. I tried to release myself away from his tighten grip.

" Don't do this to us! I love you .. Only you! ", he said, once again he tried to stop me. "Why? You find me weak and inefficient. You should be with the one who matches your characteristics. I am not right for you.", I said, Atlast releasing from his grip. I ran as fast as I could. I didn't turn back.

                      **** Sorav's part ******

Again she left me with despair. Sweetness of our relationship has not yet died. But still she thinks that it is good for her to leave me because she is not good for me. I loved her. How do I make her believe that my heart still beats for her.

I drove back in search of her. Her absence took me back home where we continued to live in silence . I would make attempts to speak to her. But she would stay away from me. She had made barriers by not speaking to me and staying away from me.

My only hope was Aunt Sheila. My efforts had failed. Aunt Sheila.. I never wanted to approach her. I thought my love was more than enough to bring my wife back. But Aunt Sheila's witness can only make things better.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses - Part 25

His kiss had taken me to the world I had thought never existed. The broken heart of mine was healing. It wanted to hold this moment for long time. But the reality struck me bad.

Suddenly I turned away from him.. away from the mirage I didn't want to get trapped again. "What happened, love?", he asked. "Please.. This is not right !"I said, trying to calm my emotions from out bursting. 

"Why? Did I do something wrong?", he asked, holding my face in his palm. Oh gosh! Why does he thinks like that? "No. It's my mistake. I am not what you want.", I said. I got up and walked out.

But he pulled me down towards him. I tried to take my hand out of his tight grip. But his grip got more tighter with my every protest. "Enough! You have been running from me too long.", he said.

I turned red due to two opposite reasons. 1. I was angry that he had stopped me now when I was close to my goal. 2. I was scared that he had got to know what I was up to. However I was still unsure of second reason.

"Where am I running?", I lied. " Then why are you acting like this as if you are leaving me. You can't leave me like this. I need you.", he said, hurting my heart.

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Bed of Roses - Part 24

Sorav started with surprises again. He had taken me to the sun set point during the weekend. Strange!! He had never given me surprises like this. He had never given surprises for my birthdays. This was indeed weird. Second surprise visit to our memory lane!

I was trying to give him the best while he is trying to act like we are normal couple. Why? At one point, he is tired of me and always complaining about my deficiencies. At the next moment, he is trying to be this sweet husband, showering love and affection. 

Why? What was he proving? Is he not happy with Sarah? Why is he spending time with me? I am not the one he is supposed to be with. I need to ask him , understand him and know what was going on in his mind. He has sending me confusing signals. Does he still love me? It cannot be.

The sun was setting. The sky was turning into mixture of orange and purple. The winds was turning chillier. As the sun was settling into it's invisible blanket for deep sleep, he got closer to me until the distance between us was nil. I could feel his breath.

He placed his hand on my shoulders and draffed me closer. I could feel the raising heart beats and sudden pain inside my soul that wasn't physical but was emotional. I wanted to cry and hold him. I wanted him to hold me and never leave me. I wanted him make those old promises again.

He looked at me for some time. What happened next was only due to overflowing emotions we had kept for so long time. He pressed his lip to mine. It was heavenly and I felt our love was reborn again. It was a kiss that we had shared years back.

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Bed of Roses - Part 23

I felt awkward. Awkward with my own husband ? Strange !! I do love him. Maybe I stopped expecting these moments. I was satisfied with the feeling of being ignored. This sudden attention should have made me happy. But I wasn't. It felt strange. Questions like why and what ran inside my mind.

I needed answers and I wasn't brave enough to ask him. I never questioned him. I sat while he got up and sang songs of love. It was an ironic of why he was singing or whom was he singing for. If it was for me, why now? I felt suffocated and secretly walked out for some air.

I walked and walked till I realised that I had gone too far. I had lost my way. My legs ached. I felt to the ground and gradually took out my high heels. I nursed my feet as well my heart. I cried inside as I couldn't shed any tears.

It hadn't been long when I felt someone place their hand on my shoulder. I hoped it wasn't Aunt Sheila. I don't know how she understands my emotional vibes. Whenever I need a hug, she's always there.

I looked back immediately. Again I was surprised. It was him. Sorav! Here! He would be last one to understand anything that was measured by emotions and love. I consoled myself. I didn't want him to notice any kind of my emotional awkwardness.

"What happened , my love?", he said, brushing my cheeks. I was numb except my heart beat thousands times. "Nothing! I am not keeping well.", I lied. " You fine?", he asked. "No.. I am fine! I am tired. I think we should go home.", I lied again. He looked at me suspicious and held my hand while we walked towards his car.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 22

Today, I was supposed to meet Sarah. I was stunned to see Sorav instead of her. He was quite early than usual. What was he doing here? Why was he here?  Anyway, he must be here for some work. I walked towards him, wishing that he would answer all my questions without having to ask them.

Sigh! I knew this was distant dream. He wasn't very sensitive to other's needs unlike me. He was self centered and practical. He knew world better than me. I was simpleton in front of his eyes who had no idea of how world works. That's why Sarah was the best. She understood everything.

I was escorted by him towards his car. He didn't say anything. He didn't even answer my question when I asked him where we were going. He smiled and kept quiet till he stopped at Karoke club we used to spend our initial years of love affair.

We used to have fun. Our melodyless singing and his funny dance moves.. Those were days when our love was above our imperfections. But now our love was past. Our memories were history that was erased now.

Why did he bring me here? Did Sarah know about his plans? Was she here? How many surprises ? Why was he giving me these surprises? Did this mean he still loved me? Ridiculous me! Why would he love me? I was his wife and only wife who wasn't right for him.

Sarah wasn't there. She was at one of her friend's party. So it was only two of us. It was awkward. I simply stared and remained shy while he tried to pursuade me to sing. I wasn't ready for it.

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Bed of Roses - Part 21

I wasn't convinced. I smiled at times when I thought about our special night. But then her foolish thoughts play in my mind , spoiling and hurting my heart. I hate this waiting period. Unfortunately I have no other options. I sat on our couch as soon as I come from Aunt Sheila'a place.

I wish I could create sweet wonderful moments like these  and prove my love to her.  However great scholars have stated - What is love when you have to prove it to one you love. So is my love not strong enough to reach my love? I am waiting for the day when she will understand how much I love her.

                                    **** Sherin's Part ****

What was happening? Here I was helping my love to get his dream girl. Something wrong was happening. God wasn't helping me. He had created blocks in my life.

I wanted best for him. I wasn't right for him. Sarah was perfect. Even if we were together, we were not compatible with each other. Love is sweet and bitter. The sweetness as well as pain lies in sacrifices.

He had come from work. He hadn't spoken a word. He was quiet. It looked like as if he was thinking deeply about something that I was unaware. Who was I? I was nothing. To world's eyes, I was his wife and nothing more.

I drank my tears. I didn't want him to know what hell I was going through. So I did my usual duties without even caring about asking him about what he was thinking.

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Bed of Roses- Part 20

"Ha! Caught you red handed.", I smirked. She wasn't amused by my presence or me getting to know the truth. It was as if she had expected that I would come face to face to the truth. Whatever! How could she not tell me about this?

" Now I understand that Raj's date was just lie. He was sent by you to see how I was handling alone ?", I said. Her facial expressions changed from being unaffected to anger. It looked like as if he was going to explode anytime.

"Stop blaming me! You should be thanking me that I saved your night. I didn't send Raj to check on you. I knew she would bring Sarah. He was your godmother who saved you from the wrath of embarrassing night. I wanted your plan to work.", she argued.

I grimaced. I didn't believe a word she said. She never trusted my qualities. She always put me down. She always felt Sherin deserved the best and I was least that God almighty had blessed Sherin with. "Ok! You tell me what would you have done to save the night without my involvement?",she said.

"Well... I would..", I shrugged as I was lost with words. What would I have done if Raj was not there.? Maybe I would have been sandwiched between two ladies. Maybe that special dance wouldn't have happened ever. Maybe she would have made me danced with Sarah. Sherin was capable of everything.

Oh! What should I say? I didn't have any strong idea that could support my stance. Negative self of me was laughing at me. Aunt Sheila placed her soft hands on my shoulder. "Common! Don't go into depression mode. Remember yesterday's night and be happy. She still loves you and we have just made her feel that you are still serious about her.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 19

I woke up with sweet memories of the night in my head. I couldn't forget them. It was imprinted in my mind and was difficult to be erased. Memories good or bad , the only one that remain with you are the ones that touched your heart. Well! Speaking about my heart, it couldn't resist the closeness we shared. It wanted more.

She hadn't spoken much since last night. I hadn't feel strange. I had gotten used to it. Maybe she was taking time with my sudden display of love. Maybe she was taking time to accept that our relationship will not end.

It's ok. Let her take time. Let her slowly come out of her shell. I won't give up. I will keep my patience intact. I will not let her go this time. Last time I fought against world for her. This time I will fight against her for getting her back.

I headed towards Sheila's place after I completed my day's work at office. I despised going to her place even though I had no choice. I was waiting for the time when I didn't have to come back here. I was composing myself into relaxed one from tiresome 'me'.

I had knocked the door. Later I found it ajar with little space for one fourth of me to pass through. I opened the door to whole drama that was hidden to me. I had caught Aunt Sheila red handed with Raj and Sheena.

I wasn't shocked. I wasn't even feeling betrayed. I was angry. I was upset that she assumed that I couldn't do anything on my own. How could she think that I couldn't handle the night? I was smart enough to handle the situation. Bringing Raj wasn't her smartest move. Sarah wasn't big deal for me.

( To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 18

She had his gaze throughout the dance. Yes! They did dance after several minutes of staring at each other. Raj had given me colourful description of their romance filled dance. He had told me that he hadn't seen both of them in deep love since they had got married. The second chapter in their life had already begun.

As the beautiful evening ended, Raj asked Sarah whether he could drop her home. Sarah agreed because of two reasons - 1. She didn't want to be part of lovers. Obviously no one would want to be sandwiched between two lovers. 2. Her house was quite close to Raj. There was also hidden reason- why wouldnt she agree when handsome guy like Raj was giving her a lift back home. Whatever. I am not trying to be boastful mother.

I was happy in the end of day when Raj spoke about the events. Sorav was happy too. Atlast the first part of our plan was executed successfully. The only thing that remained was to make my niece to believe in love again.

                            Sorav's part

I was happy. At last things did happen to small extent as I thought. Atleast I took risk unlike Sheila. These oldies are too conservative when it comes to taking big steps. They call this conservative and traditional behaviour to be their experience while they call our experimentation as sheer foolishness.

I had never felt abundance of love for very long time. Every touch .. Every inch of our closeness tickled my heart. Every hair on my body raised when she leaned her head on my chest while we slow danced. It was like as if I was holding her close to me for the first time.

I felt like a teenager all over again. Love can do such marvellous things. Well! This was just a begining. Very soon! I will win over my wife's heart just like the old times.

(To be continued)

Bed of Roses- Part 17

Sorav was angry. His face was red. Obviously he had planned so much just to spend some hours with his wife. He had planned to bring life to his almost dead relationship. And with interruptions in form of Sarah and Raj, he was losing hope. He took deep breaths, controlling his seething rage.

" What a pleasant surprise, Raj?", he said, though Raj had known that his presence was definetly not pleasant. Raj was here to make things better for him. "Yes indeed! I thought I was going to spend my night alone when my date ditched me.", Raj lied.

Sherin being the sympathetic and generous human asked , "Why don't you join us?" " No ! You guys carry on.", Raj said but Sherin dragged him as expected. She is very adamant when it comes to sharing time with loved ones. She hates leaving them alone.

"Someone truly said, more than three could bring chaos" , Sorav whispered. Everyone remained still. "Did you say something?", Sherin asked. "Nothing darling", he said , holding her hands. Hours passed by when musicians  came. Sorav tried to stop them but they didn't  pay heed to his advice.

The musicians played her favourite romantic song. She was surprised as well as embarrassed. Sorav covered his face while Sarah smiled secretly. " Sorav, why don't you ask her for dance? Don't you remember your first dance at your wedding.", Raj asked. I am proud of my son's wittiness.

"No. It's Embarrasing! ", Sherin said. " Common ! Guys ! Don't be spoilsport!  Go and dance!", Raj said, pulling them to imaginary dance floor. The stares of customers at the resturant made them more nervous. They held hands but couldn't look into each other eyes.

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Bed of Roses- Part 16

My temper reached to highest level.  I wanted to hit him when he had called me to tell me about the developments of our plan. He had organised a special night at one of the best hotel in the city. He had also bought in musical orchestra to play in soft music while they would dance , remembering the old times.

I was impressed and was still angry with him. Once he was done, I only congratulated him and asked two important questions, " Does she know that you are taking somewhere ? Did you check on her?" " Ha! You are funny, Sheila. Obviously she doesn't know where I am taking her. But I did tell her to be free and that I would take her out. I am not checking on her now. I am tired.", he said.

I smirked. " Ok! All the best!", I said,plotting what Sherin would do next. She would call Sarah to join in  their evening and then the plan of her poor husband would end. I had to save Sorav from the embarrassment.

So I called him again. I needed some more details about the time and place. He gave me details after lot of questioning. He trusts his wife blindly when he was supposed to spy on her activities. Anyway I got into my planning without giving him any details. My partners in crime , Raj(my son) and Sheena( Shirin's sister) were more involved than her.

Sorav had put in lot to make the evening special one. He did what he had proposed to do. He had made sure he picked her up on time and thus he go to her workplace one hour early. He was happy until Sarah dropped in. Sarah had become inevitable problem or if I could say it in amusing way, she had become bodyguard of my little angel (Shirin). 

Sorav would have lost it if  I hadn't sent my little angel (Raj) to his resuce. I had to be his fairy Godmother. Unfortunately Sorav didn't understand how Raj had go to know about his plans. He was very miffed that his privacy was endangered by two people - Raj and Sarah.

(To be continued) 

Bed of Roses- Part 15

I had gathered lot of information about her secret plans. She was trying to be the best friend of the girl who was once upon time a good friend of mine. Now that good friend was more like an intruder in our lives. 

It wasn't Sarah's mistake to drop into my life by coincidence. It was my sweet wife's misconception that Sarah and I would click together. Unfortunately she wasn't seeing bigger picture that was I always belonged to her.

She would make sure Sarah was in all our special events and I despised this only because I was stopped by great Aunt Sheila to interfere with her niece's bloody plans. I was getting restless. I wanted to deviate from her plans as it didn't help me to rekindle my relationship with Shirin.

I wanted to get hold of Shirin and tell her the words  that could convince her to stay. But something stopped me from doing so. Maybe it was fear. Maybe it wasn't right time to tell her the truth. Oh ! This pain was unbearable. When was Aunt Sheila going to execute her foolproof plan?

                                                **** Aunt Sheila's part ****

Restless was Sorav's other name. He wanted the plan to be executed now. Youngsters are always on the go. They don't look into pros and cons of anything and jump into things easily without understanding the outcome. 

I had asked him to wait. The boy was out of his mind. He could have waited for my instructions. I had specific plan that once I had collected enough information about her. This would have taken maybe two days if he hadn't executed the second step.

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Bed of Roses - Part 14

" What!", I exclaimed. This lady has really gone mad. I have been tolerating her for so long because she was Shirin's aunt. Now my patience was lost.  What was she saying? She had asked me to spy on my wife's action and give all the updates to her so that she could make up the plan. "I am quitting!", I said.

"I knew you would quit. My niece was too naive to choose you as her partner without even knowing that you would quit on her one day.",she scolded. I got annoyed at her statement. I wasn't going to quit on her.

But why all these drama when I could speak to her directly. I told her that I wasn't ready to lie to my wife and I wanted her to know the truth soon. Aunt Sheila was one of her kind. If she believed in some idea, she would make sure everyone part of it.

" You don't understand! I want her to feel the love that she always wanted from you. This is your chance to make her feel special. Now she is broken. Fix her. Make her believe in herself and others. Make her strong wife who will never give up on you.", Aunt Sheila said.

What she said made sense to me. Our love was not meant to die like this. It was supposed to grow deeper and stronger. And yes I did agree on her stupid idea to get her back. I agreed to do all that Aunt Sheila advised to make my wife feel special.

It wasn't easy. A working professional like me had to certain excuses to get few days off for my wife. Ah!Convincing boss to grant a leave was equivalent to spying my wife or climbing a steep mountain.


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