The Red Bangles- Part 1

She stared at her not so new red bangles. It was symbol that reminded her about him. She felt a slight blush arriving on her face. She played with her bangles while her red dupatta swayed to the music of carefree winds blowing. The memories of her dear husband played in her mind. Every events ran in her mind like as if it was happening for the first time.

The day of her life where she accepted him as her beloved had arrived and gone so quickly.  But his memories remained with her for long till now.Marriage is all about the adjustments and responsibilities and she was ready for it. She had accepted his desire to fight for their country and free his countrymen from the foreign power that had been ruling for more than 100 years.

She blushed at thought of meeting him after long long time. She had waited for this day since one year. A day never passed where she didn't think about him. He had promised her that he would meet her exactly after an year. He had gone for a cause that would take an year to execute. He was excited that he was going to be part of Bhagat's group. But he couldn't manage to cover his pain caused by the separation.

She received his last letter. He had spoken about love and days that he hadn't been with her. He also praised her for being strong and waiting patiently for him. He had also counted days for their reunion. She reread the letter again and again until she remembered each words written by him was time and in few minutes she will meet him.

The train had arrived. Half of its compartments were set on fire. She could hear the loud wails of children, women and all kinds of people crying. Dead bodies were hanging out of the train. She could hear her heart beat thump loudly. The only question that was in her mind was that was he safe?

Every minute, she prayed for his safety. In few minutes, life was going to be changed drastically. She saw few mutilated bodies of his friend. She covered her mouth, forcing herself to stop crying. But tears couldn't stop. Hopes had died. She stopped still and dropped down when she couldn't take it more.

(To be continued)

Summertime Sadness- Part 8

She visited him after days of making him wait for her. At last the silence broke and she asked him the reason for his wait, " Why.. why are you doing this to me? When you know the answer, why are you still here?" She felt guilty. She tried to cover it but her eyes said it all.

Love has no reason and she knew this very well. " Why do you love me while I can't love you back? You know that I love him so much. I have already promised him that I will be with him.", she said. "How can I break his promise? How can I accept you when my heart beats for him?", she added.

"Ha! You meet me with so many questions. Okay! I will answer one by one. You are the only one person whose expectation from me is simple. I have never met such a beautiful person who can teach you how to love in simply way. And who says you don't love me the same way. You love me like a friend. Don't break his heart but you can do one thing.", he said .Later he asked her if she will remain his friend.

She readily accepted it. She didn't take one second to say the answer. She loved him as a friend. But he made one mistake.. He never acknowledged himself for being beautiful person. " I am not beautiful human. You are.. You silently accepted the pain I gave you involuntarily. I am sorry.", she said.  

He hugged her and said, " Now please stop crying and lets be friend." She smiled after long time since they broke up as friends. Now they were back to bring fun and laughter in each other's life. They remained friends till date.

However he still continued to love. He never stopped loving her as a friend. Infatuation was replaced by respect. He had started respecting her more and she had started trusting him. She had already promised him to make him her maid of honor though she didn't care about her girl friends cribbing for that place. 




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Summertime Sadness- Part 7

He was in pain. His eyes said it all. Pain! Miserable! Havoc! None of the words could best describe what he was going through. She could see it . She could also feel it. But she couldn't help him. She was tied to her own emotions that made her feel not ready to accept any relationship.

He didn't give up. He still waited for her. He never gave up the hope of having her in his life. He didn't mind to be her friend. She had ignoring him. Her silence was torturing his heart. But he had become immune to it.

He waited and waited. But she never came back. She was still recovering from the disbelief. It wasn't an issue. Was she overacting? But he was a friend.. close friend whom she treated and loved him as a friend. She never had such feelings for him. However it was difficult to accept the truth though she wasn't affected by the way he said.

She couldn't see this. His pain was affecting her as a friend. As a friend, she couldn't see him in pain. He was there when she needed the most. He also stayed when she was the cause of him leaving the place. But now when he needed her the most, she couldn't be there.

She saw him waiting for her to give answer though he knew the answer. "Why does he love me so much when he knows I can't give the same?", she wondered. She wished she could accept him without anything holding her back. But she had already committed to somebody else. She couldn't break it for her friend.

Love is strange. It had broken their wonderful friendship. It had become a third fiddle in their relationship. When the desires of two souls in the relationship becomes different, it causes tear in relationship and the distance between them become more with each tear of the string that connects them.



(To be continued)

Summertime Sadness- Part 6

Love is limitless but it wasn't in his case. She was limit to his love for her. If he told her, she might leave him. Now it was impossible for him to even forget what he had for her. Whenever he tried, his fear berated him as loser.

The rationale mind taunted him. How could he possible think that spilling out his feeling would heal his pain? How foolish he could be to think that it would be mend his heart? In a whole, it would break one and only true friendship he would treasure. But wouldn't it break him inside if he didn't tell the truth? He hadn't done any sin in loving her. If she was his true friend, she would understand his love.

It was now or never. He didn't care about the outcome. He knew the outcome would be terrible. He had made up his mind to say those words that won't affect their friendship. He had to be careful...very careful.

At last he disclosed the truth. He had found the right opportunity to speak to her. She was alone and no one was there to distract them. They were the only ones to leave her uncle's food station. " You know the reason of me leaving this place few days back? It was love.. It was love for you.. I love you but you don't love me that way. But it's okay. I can stay like this, cherishing our friendship.", she said. 

She was stunned and didn't want to believe. She always had doubt that he had crush on her. But she never took it seriously. She had liked him for his simple nature. She didn't feel bad when he had said that he loved her. But she still couldn't digest this fact.

She left him without saying a single word. She didn't look back. She stayed away from him. She needed time to accept it but she didn't tell him. He suffered due to her silence. He felt he made a sin for falling in love with her. 

(To be continued)

Summertime Sadness - Part 5

He was lost and couldn't take it anymore. He had to get away from her. Being with her was torture to his soul. It was weird that being with her would be so impossible. He was becoming lovesick every day , just by glancing at her.

Leaving her was the best option. She was not going to be part of his life. She like the others was guest for few days in his life. He had to leave the city. He had to leave his friends, family and memories. This was the only remedy to his wounded heart. 

He was ready to leave everything. He was ready to leave the place that had nurtured him from the time he had stepped into this world. But now it had become impossible to stay. He had tried to stay far from her but she did something that even leaving was impossible.

Her sweet words , baby face and her doe eyes were enough to stop him. She made him stop by making him promise on their friendship, " If you promise to stay, then I promise to never follow you like a crazy puppy.". Thus he left the thought of leaving her forever. She asked him, " So tell me, why did you want to leave?" 

He had no words to say. How was he going to say that she was the reason to leave. But he didn't understand why did she stopped him? She was different. Maybe he was over thinking too much. Maybe she only treated him as a friend. Maybe his heart was not ready to accept the truth that she was just a friend.

Love was impossible. It didn't leave him. Every time he believed that she was a friend, his heart would dismiss this fact. He couldn't stay away even if he wanted to. He wished love was not that complicated. He wished he could disclose his heart felt feelings to her. But that never happened ever.

(To be continued)

Summertime Sadness - Part 4

At last she spilled out the heart out to him. The mention of that damn person name who was the cause of her mood swings had brought the first scratch in his heart. Her words had stabbed him bad. He knew that pretty girls like her were never single. But his heart never gave up.

It jolted him. Every time she mentioned his name, it pinched his heart. " Mark, I don't know why do I love him so much when I know he is not the right one. He treats me well while taunting me of being popular. Is it wrong to be loved by many?". she said with tear eyed. 

He whispered softly, " No" and hugged her. While he consoled her, there was no one to console his heart. Suddenly happiness had escaped from his life without any trace. Sacrifice and failed relationships became part of his life. He had gotten used to such life. Sacrifice was a common word in his life.

It was hard to digest. Knowing that your love would never be yours hurts. She was normal following days but he was not normal. Mark was getting tired being the doormat. So he started to stay far from her.

Whatever it was, now she was over it. She hardly spoke about love. But Mark's weird behavior was not understandable to her. She was still unaware about what he felt for her. His way of distancing himself from her troubled her. She had to find the reason of his cold behaviour towards him.

Vultures of failure doomed his soul. His inner self shouted slogans of loser at him. Even the words of wisdom from friends and family seemed like thorns to him. He wanted to stay away from everyone. He was becoming a loner to the world who knew him.

(To be continued)

Summertime Sadness- Part 3

The love is one of the most difficult emotions that is hard to express and hide. It seeps through eyes of a lover for his beloved. He wished she could feel his sweet love. Was his love invisible for her to see? Did she pretend to play with his heart? No, it can't be. She may be bold but not too bold to manipulate with his heart.

He had two ways- either leave or be patient. His time was not up yet. Everything happened at right time. Now, it was too early for him to disclose his secret. He wasn't still sure that he wanted her though every part of his sould and body screamed out her name.

The dreams about her were like fairtale. They were not real. They would disappear as soon as sun rays touched his eyelids while the alarm woke him from the unrealistic imaginations. The most unrealistic dream he ever had was they sitting on the park, smiling at the past without the worries of the future. 

She hadn't spoken to him for few days. This was unlike her personality. She sat aloof, doing her work silently. Whenever he tried to say hi, her respone would only be a smile or she would ignore him completely. What was wrong with her? Did she get to know the truth? Will she distance herself from him?

Such questions pestered him like swarm of bees. They stung his heart. Everyday she would ignore him like as if he was nothing. Everyday he would break his heart by keeping hopes that one day she would come up to him and appologise for being nasty towards him. But that day never arrived. He was in state of losing hope and love had again disappointed him.

After some days, she was back to normal. She spoke to him as if nothing happened. His sorrowful heart was ready to forgive him. He still didn't understand what was wrong with her. He never forced her to share her heart. He was scared to lose her again. Love .. Relationships.. Everything complicated his life

(To be continued)