This shit called love - Part 3

His face didn't have the same chirpiness that would lit his face while he saw me. " What happened? ", I asked.  "Nothing", he replied back. "Don't say that! Did she dump you again? ", I asked angrily while I rolled up my sleeve. 

His eyes told me the truth while he tried to hide it, "Hey !! It's not like that. It was mutual decision to end our relationship. No one was happy." 

I wanted to slap him .Sometimes I wish I was tall or I wish he wasn't so tall and lanky. An idea struck me. I took the keys placed on the table. I dragged him outside. "Where are we going?", he asked. I didn't respond. We walked down the stairs until we reached the basement. 

I saw his bike parked at the usual place. I started it with all force and zeal.I tossed my dupatta to him. " Can you at least tell me know?", he asked again." Shut up and come !", I said. He didn't argue as he knew it was of no use. 

We stopped at his girlfriend..ex girlfriends house. "What! No way! I am not getting back together.", he said. " Who said that I am sending you back to her?", I replied and started collecting stones lying on the ground. He simply stood cluelessly about what I was going to do. 

 I collected tiny little pebbles and offered him some. He took some hesitatingly. I started throwing them at the neatly washed car. It was her car. After I threw it , making tiny little scratches on the car, I used the key to scratch the message - Heartless bitch! "Hey Suhani! Stop it ! That's enough", he said. "This is nothing! I had too many ideas to break her bones. How dare she breaks your heart? And you ! Don't ever fall for this shit called love.", I said with great satisfaction.

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This shit called Love - Part 2

My mum had dragged me with her and Mahi for shopping. And shopping with mum is horror. She would make you try every piece of cloth at the shop until she found the perfect piece. Mahi would become her Barbie doll and wear dresses mum wish to see her in while I made fuss.

" You can't wear that when you are with us.", my mum scolded. I didn't care. I was wearing loose yellow salwar kameez that made look invisible while Mahi dressed for occasion with hot red Gagra choli.

" First of all , the dress you bought me was too gaudy. I am not comfortable in those clothes. Secondly , I don't want million people staring at me like the way they stare at Mahi.", I said  annoyingly. " What's wrong with people staring at you? You are Pinky the ex Miss India's daughter.", my mum said. 

"Ma, you weren't Miss India. You were just a contestant in some god damn beauty pageant.", I said sarcastically. She didn't care about me telling those words but what mattered to her was me calling her Ma instead of mum. Before she could say anything, I decided to leave the place quietly.

I walked down the street until I stopped at the place. It was shady apartment .This place had seen my wrath as well as my soft side. I climbed the stairs to fourth floor. I stopped at the flat number- 4b. I banged the door like as if it was my house. 

After few minutes, a tall lanky boy opened the door. His hair resembled sugar candy except that it wasn't pink. He let me in like he always does. I was about to pour out my problems when I saw his sullen face.

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This shit called Love- Part 1

The day had already begun for people around me . But for me , the night wasn't over. My mum killed my name by calling me down for breakfast with her fake accent.

I have no idea why does she have to sound cool when she is already cool. She thinks that using fake accent would definitely let her into our world. Well, Mahi is impressed and me - Definitely not!

I woke up with difficulty. My eyes were still heavy. I wish I could stay on the bed for generation without any desire to greet the world outside. I had very deep relationship with the bed. 

" Wake up, lazy bum!", my inner conscious scolded me. I walked lazily towards the loo to freshen up. I took hours to brush my teeth. Splashing the cold water on my face to fight the sleep wasn't easy. I dozed in between while washing my face.

I hate breakfast , lunch or dinner. Actually the only food that I could relish is junk. The way these fatty food melts into our mouth is very interesting unlike the food I was having now. 

I looked at oats that mum prepared. I made a face that made mum irritated. " If you don't want to eat it, leave it. It's for your own good. I don't want you to get fat. I want both my daughters to look pretty and slim.", she said. I wasn't fat as per world . I was plain jane with hidden dark secrets. 

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Red Roses- Part 31

" I am still telling you ! Fury is not good! I haven't done anything to you. Rajeev loved you unconditionally. He had no right to die. Please.. Please don't do this! I am not asking you to spare my life. ", he said, hoping to save his life.

She smiled. It was an evil smile. But the smile didn't stay longer. It faded once she thought about all the events. It was result of her own silly  actions and decisions. A second thought of sparing his life struck her mind. For a minute, she forgot the deal she had with the devil.

Every human deserved second chance. And hell! She had received many from God himself but she chose to follow the devil. Why she was thinking like this? Did the good still exist in small part of her heart. 

She looked at him and thought deeply, "Did this guy require a chance to live?" Then something happened to her and she became the old mean self. "No!", her mind screamed. "I can't forget the day I died! I can't forget the men who used me! You ! You don't deserve to live just the way they didn't deserve to live.", she said coldly,

Before she could take his life, he pulled the chain saw from her hand. He pushed it inside his heart while the blood oozed out from his heart. Pain was intolerable. He smiled and said, " Now you won't be able to take my soul." He died with pride. Her colour drained  out. A soul was lost. 

She dragged his body slowly. She covered it with thick cloth and dug a hole to bury the body. She placed the body into the hole. She threw some petals of rose to make her master believe that a soul wasn't lost. " Lucianne! This is not right! You know the penalty of lost soul!", a voice chided her. She looked back to see Grimm staring hard at her. "Don't do this to me. I didn't.. lose.", she stammered. " Oh my poor child, you can't even tell a lie. Come here. Don't worry. This will be a secret between you and me.", he said like a father would console his kid. She did as she was told. He held her face in his palms and slowly his grip tightened. She couldn't bear the pain and begged him to leave. But he didn't and continued until her face burst like a balloon. "I told you , Grimm, never trust a woman with a job.", he whispered to himself.

                The End

Red Roses - Part 30

After Duke, I never stopped. I bought in many souls and filled Grimm's quota. Grimm didn't let me down. He rewarded me by giving two bodies- Lucy and Fern. I also got my new names. 

     

******* The end of Lucianne's story *****

Arjun was perplexed. He didn't know whether to feel sorry for Lucy or mock at her. He learnt one thing- every devil was not born as a devil. It is only their actions that make them one. 

"I am sorry that you have gone through a lot. But why are you taking your revenge on the innocent? You punished Duke! Now it's time to get over it.", he said. Lucy and Fern stared at him with anger. It was like as if he had stolen something from them. 

Lucy got closer to Fern. A light appeared from nowhere between them. Their bodies were getting converged and formed into real Lucianne. It didn't look good. Fern's charred body reflected the a part of Lucianne's burnt body while the other unaffected part reminded him of her once lost beauty. 

" This is how I look! No one ever cared about my death, so why should I ? I won't stop until the fury inside me cools down.", she cried as she walked closer to him. She grabbed his collar and stared hard at him. 

For the first time, he felt the pain she was going through . For the first time, he became aware of fear. For the first time, it made sense - what she was going through. For the first time, he realised that she was hero .. a broken angel who chose the wrong path.

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Red roses - part 29 O

They left me suffering alone. I was angry, sad and depressed. My life ended so easily. The truth was out. I was nobody to everyone. My soul cried at the torture that my body received.  I scolded God for making me suffer so bad. That day was last when I stopped believing in God. 

Days passed and I was forgotten past. There was not even a soul who was worried about my absence. My murderers continued with their lives without any regret. 

One fine day, I was wandering across the woods as usual. I saw my decayed body. "Does anyone care about my death?", I cried loud. "Yes, my child! ", a voice replied. The voice was deep and clear. I looked behind and was  startled to see the person in a cloak with hood hiding his face.

"Who are you?", I asked. "Don't ask me who am I . Ask me, what can I do for you. I am Grimm, devil's right arm. I am here to give you a chance to get back your life.", he replied. "My life ! How can you give back my life when it is already taken?", I asked.  

He smiled and said, " I know your life was taken by ill means. I am here to help you get back. But there is a condition. ( long pause) You have to bring me 300 souls every year. When we are satisfied with the amount, we will give back your life. Do not say no. This is one of such opportunity that never comes your way."

I thought and thought about it. This was wrong and so was my death. God wasn't there to save me from this wrath. If the devil has come to hold my hand , why say no. I quickly accepted the offer and my first catch was Duke and Riley. I punished them in similar manner as they took away my life. I had no remorse. 

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Red Roses- Part 29 n

His blue eyes showed no remorse at what he did afterwards. He called his trusted servant (Riley). When Riley saw my cold body lying on the ground, he let out soft cry. No one could hear his voice. " Did you kill her, my lord?", he asked weakly though he knew the answer to his question. 

"It is none of your business. Do as I say! We need to get her out of this house. ", Duke replied. Riley did as he was told. He bought thick blanket from the old cupboard from the other end of the house. 

Later he stripped me out from my dress and covered me with the blanket. The blanket hid my face and other parts of the body. I felt little at the things done to me. The truth was out. I was going to be thrown like dirt out of the house.

It was three am - devils hour. It was drizzling outside. Riley carried me out while Duke followed us to the woods. They were cautious about anyone's presence. Riley put me down to the ground. He was about to dig when Duke stopped him. 

He asked me to bring an axe. I was as confused as Riley was. What was he going to do with an axe? Riley immediately bought what he was asked to. " Give me the axe!", Duke ordered. Riley presented it without any clue of what was going to happen next. 

Duke slit my body and dragged it until my body became half. My soul cried out of fear. Riley covered his face. At least there was a human who didn't want to witness this horror. I wanted to pull Duke and shake him till senses come into him. He lit fire by old technique of mankind and burnt the first part of my body. While he asked Riley to hid the other part of my body into the bushes. That horrifying night still sends me shivers.

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Red Roses- Part 29 m

I had spoken more than what was required. I knew I shouldn't have  because what happened next was the result of my words hitting the soft spot. Another secondary reason was that the men during that period weren't used to woman making their stand. 

He strangled me due to raising temper. I struggled for breath and begged him to leave me. He refused and continued until my heart beats stopped drastically. I was feeling the symptoms of my end approaching soon.

My life was going to end very soon. However I didn't give up. I tried to fight back. I loved my life more than anything else. I struggled again and again though his hold on neck became tighter with my every struggle.

Unfortunately I was too weak for his strength. I couldn't manage back to get hold of my precious life. I was slipping into sleep..deep sleep after which I cannot wake up. Suddenly he stopped and I thanked god.

Later he started shaking me. I didn't understand.  I was awake."Get up! Get up!", he said in hoarse tone.  I tried to raise my voice to tell him that I was awake. I tried to touch him and I saw that I could trespass his body. Alas! I realised that I had lost my precious life. 

I couldn't believe this. Was my life so little? Was my life so worthless that it had to end this way? I wanted to scream and I couldn't . It was simply because I was a soul that had left the body.  Dreams of future flew in thin air. I lost my life because I stood up for myself. This  was not enough and what happened next shook me hard. 

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Red roses - Part 29 l

Love and worldly things don't co exist . They are rare combinations. This rare combination can be found in only in fairy tales . I had all the worldly happiness but love didn't exist in my life.

As soon as my infidelity became talk of the town, he barged into life. He was very angry. " How dare you?", he said, pulling me towards him and shaking me to bring some sense to me. I smiled sheepishly. I didn't regret my actions. Why should I ?

" I gave you everything and this is how you repay me? ", he said. " Everything! Where? I am only a puppet in your life. I have no identity, respect or love. People call me a disgrace to your life.", I wanted to say all that. However you say all that you don't mean to say.

" I am bored sitting idle at mansion. I am only trying to add colour to my lonely life.", I said half truth. " You can add colour to your life in various meaningful ways. Why do you have to choose this? ", he asked. 

I laughed. " I am not puppet! I am a human with desires. Why do you care when others satisfy those desires while you are spending your quality time with your wife? Did I stop you?", I asked bitterly. 

His ego was hurt. He raised his hand to hit me. But he stopped in mid way. " Why did you stop? Didn't I say something wrong? Oh I know it is bitter truth ! You are a kid who wants to enjoy both the candies.", I said, hurting him more. I didn't stop there. " Why do you care when I enjoy other's company ? They are doing what you had left . Don't worry, love! I am enjoying it. ", I continued , hurting him more.

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Red Roses- Part 29 k

" Will you marry me?", I asked. He stared at me as if I had asked him his whole world. He remained quiet until he started laughing. His laughter was mocked me and broke my ego into pieces. I quietly got up. I was hurt.

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It had been two days since I had spoken to him. It made him miserable. He tried his best to break the ice. When dinner time approached, he lost his patience. " You have everything. Name, fortune and life you always dreamt. What else do you need? Will you punish because I don't want to marry you. This is ridiculous!", he said.

" Ridiculous! I am only asking you for your name. That's all! I am not asking you for whole mountain.", I argued. He nodded his head in despair and stared hard at me. " I am not marrying you, love. I cannot have another family when I already have one. I cannot betray my wife.", he said coldly. 

" You can betray your mistress though. This is not fair. Why should I bear the brunt of everything? ", I cried. He didn't console me with his sweet words. He simply left me with bitter silence.

I had to accept my brutal fate again. I had no options. After that disgraceful event, he never saw me for days. I was upset. So I decided to indulge in such activities that would bother him.

I began to attend various events where I showered my attention to my unrequited lovers. They were happy and kept me happy. The news about my infidelity was spreading fast. I wasn't bothered about the consequences. I wanted that. 

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Red Roses- Part 29 j

Expectations! What were those? I didn't know until love started dying away. When love is there, it binds two people and makes everything look rosy and sweet. As days pass, things tend to become clear and so does love. The sweet feelings turns into bitter bondage and you start searching ways to get out of it.

I enjoyed the bliss ness of the relationship. The Duke would shower love in form of gifts, status and life that I craved for. I got everything without having to work for it. Life was beautiful and exciting. 

I told you that everything came with a price. I was a bloody mistress in eyes of society. I was disgraced and respect was a faraway friend of mine. He stopped accompanying me when the rumours spread in the town. He didn't want to be seen with me in order to protect his image. I merely became showpiece at his house.

I accepted my fate. I was to live a life of doll. Dressing up and being his muse was what he wanted. I gave him and in return he gave me life I desired. But I would hardly get his time and attention. He would come to his mansion only when he wanted to spice up his life.

I would spend the rest  of days at the gardens , trying to make sense of the life I was living. As I thought, things became clear. I was a puppet in his hands just like the one I had been years ago. Well I was forced into it years ago and now I chose it.

I couldn't get out of this life. I was addicted to it. One fine day, I woke up to reality. I was his mistress without a name. I wanted more. So when he came home, I was there with my new found desire. I asked him, " I want something that is precious than gold."

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