Consensual - part 22

The day was tiring. My feet was hurting bad though I didn't have any work that involved physical activities. However I was riding my little Scooty to the new office for two hours back and forth.

My father in law offered me a ride to office. But I declined it. I was a proud employee of his office and didn't want to indulge into perks of being his daughter in law. I wanted everyone in the office to believe that I was an ordinary employee like them.

The work was stressful for new joinee like me. I had no experience and it was tough to cope up. But my father in law's constant support helped me to raise up to his standard. Within months time I learnt quite lot of what was happening in work. It was great!

It was Monday blue. The clouds had formed strong alliance with each other. The rain didn't stop for hours. But work didn't stop, we continued to work with our stringent deadlines.

I was coming back from work. The monsoon day hadn't dampen my mood. I had audited few accounts. I was left with most of work done and father in law was quite happy withy work. More than that I was happy to meet my companion - rain after a long time. I hadn't enjoyed the bliss of the rain since my husband had come into my life.

The rain was amazing. Every drop of it was pure and refreshing. It hadn't been long since I came home back from office. I had gone up to the terrace to get the washed clothes. Instead of doing that, I was enjoying the rain. If Reena hadn't come looking for me, I would have stayed out  longer.

I dried myself and wore my dry clothes. I assisted ma and Reena with the dinner preparation. After the dinner, I walked back to my room though I resisted myself. It was already 12 and I wasn't able to sleep. So I put on the music from player and was busy reading a book.

But reading became boring and so I sat joblessly looking at the time. The music played , aimlessly entertaining my ears. I walked towards the window to see the rain. It was still raining. I felt the drops, extending my hand to feel them. It was peaceful and serene. Unfortunately peace didn't stay for long. I felt someone touch my shoulders.

The touch bought me shivers down the spine. I turned back to face my fear...my weakness- praveen. He lifted my face towards him. Our eyes met and I was falling in love with him again. Before it became worse, I walked away from him. But he was adamant enough to stop me. He dragged me and hugged me tight. I wanted to get away from him. I didn't want to make things complicated.


(To be continued)

Consensual - part 21

I was in a dilemma whether to say yes or no. Yes I wanted to assist my father in law and I would have readily accepted. But Praveen was extremely talented and smart enough to handle issues.

" Praveen could help you out. He is good at it. He knows the work well. I don't have any experience. I never loved accounts. I wouldn't be of any use.", I raised an opinion.

"Well, if he was responsible, I wouldn't have to beg people to join me. You are responsible and smarter than him though you don't have experience. You can pick up soon. You are efficient too.", he said assuring me about my strengths.

I wasn't convinced at all. Indeed he was irresponsible. I was in opinion that he should be given at least one chance to prove his worth. "You can take your time and tell me. I am not in hurry.", father in law said, keeping his hopes in me.

I was thinking about telling Praveen to accept the offer. I knew he wouldn't listen to me. But why not try? I waited untill morning. Before I could tell him anything, he spoke, "I heard that dad asked you to assist him. You should accept the offer. At least you can use your energy into doing something instead of slapping people.", he sarcastically commented.

I felt bad. I wanted to share my opinion about him assisting his dad. Father in law was right! My husband was an irresponsible ass hole who had only time for spending family's money for useless activities. I walked up to my father in law and said, " I am ready to come to office. Can I join you from today?"

(To be continued)

Consensual - part 20

I couldn't look at him. I tried to avoid me as much as I could. But he was my husband and I had no option but deal with him.

I wanted to forget the incident. Unfortunately he didn't let me forget it. He would bring up the issue every time.

I was reading one of my favorite books. It was a classic novel called Emma . Since it  had been long time I laid my eyes on a book. I only wanted a peaceful alone time with myself. But my husband took away that time too. "Hey! Wifey! Whatever happend that night was complete mistake. But your reaction to it was outrageous. You are my wife and I am no stranger to you. How dare you slap me in front of my friends?" , he said disturbing my peace.

I had lost my cool. This had been hundredth time he was bringing up this issue. "What do you want me to do? Kiss you back and say how grateful of you to share that kiss. You seriously have no heart! I didn't dare to slap. Your action were enough to make me react like that. Who embarrasses his wife in front of his friend? ", I snapped at him. I was very angry with him.

I walked away from him. He didn't even have courtesy to ask forgiveness. How egoistic he was? He had already broke my heart and now he was ripping it more.  It was dinner time. Everyone was at dinner table except Praveen. As usual he had gone out with his friends for another rave party organised by him. Sometimes I wonder about his irresponsible behaviour. Father in law would earn so much day and night. Praveen  wouldnt even care to save one single penny. Love is so blind. It never shows us the true side.

" Shruti , I need a favour from you child. I have an upcoming deadline for auditing books and I have few staff this year. So I was hoping that you could help me out.", father in law asked. Why did he ask me to help him? Would I be good enough to assist him? I was merely his sons wife and had not much of an exposure to outside world. What did father in law see in me?

(To be continued)

Consensual - part 19

This was supposed to be my first kiss. I wanted it to be perfect. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever thought about being kissed in front of large audience. It turned out to be worse after being kissed in front of his friends.

For god sake I was his wife. Though I have been reason for his addiction to horrible life, I didn't deserve to be embarrassed like this. In fit of rage, I slapped him hard and left the room with red face.

He looked embarrassed and his friends were shocked to see the steamy chemistry between us ending like this. Well this was not good. I felt like a puppet in his hands and I didn't want him to get that idea. So slapping him was indeed fine but it made me feel guilty later.

I bursted out crying and couldn't stop. My frustration and emotions was driving me mad. My heart was wounded again. But this time pain was too unbearable. The highest level of tolerance had broken.

I rubbed my lips constantly. I washed it again with soap and water. I gurgled the whole bottle of mouth wash to clean my mouth from his breath.

Why? I always wanted him. Why did his kiss change whatever I had for him? Sometimes one event could change our perception about people. Would my life always be like this? Do I have to pay for my innocent sin for the rest of my life.

(To be continued)

Consensual - part 18

We were ready to retire ourselves for the night. I had planned to sleep with Reena.The party was still going on. My husband was having great time. The loud voices could be heard uptill our room.

We were in mode to switch ourself to the dream world. Suddenly Praveen called me, "Wifey! Wifey... Shruti!" I didn't want to get up. But I had to force myself to walk towards my room.

I dragged myself. It took me fifteen minutes to reach the room. "Yes!", I replied. The room had become a mess. There were bottles everywhere. His friends were mostly men of his age. The smell of cigarettes and whiskey was lingering into my nosetrills. It revolted my stomach. At once I covered my nose.

"Hey! Come closer! Why are you standing so far, love?", he said , pulling me towards him. I was resisting his force on me. But he was too strong for me. "My wife , Shruti, guys was there for my sister when I was not there to support her. All cheers to my wife.. Reena has got at least a good sister in law though I have only promised her that I will be there for her.", he said, surprising me for what he said.

" I am such a bad brother. Reena is happy now because of you, darling.", he added. I was never so shocked of hearing such sweet words from his mouth for the first time. As I was sinking into the fact that I was being praised, I felt him dragging me towards him until our bodies touched each other. He pulled my hair and kissed me deep.

The kiss was quite long. I could feel his tongue exploring my mouth. I could taste his whiskey ridden breath that made me feel pukish. I had forgotten myself for few minutes. My heart was beating hard. The kiss was filled with aggression and frustration. It was an act of showing who was in control. It was never an attempt to show any sort of love or care.

(To be continued)

Consensual - part 17

As decided father in law filed a case against the greedy in laws of Reena. Reena was at last in peace. Though she felt the pinch of misery now and then about her broken marriage, I had never seen so relaxed and free of negative emotions. I was happy for her.

An hour was left for the day to end. But it wasn't over for us. Reena and I were chatting about the interesting events of our childhood. The days when we were so carefree and innocent are always so amusing to discuss. We laughed at some of our innocent mistakes.

The time was so slow and relaxing. We were enacting some of our favorite as well as annoying relatives. Everything seemed so perfect. After a long time I was having fun.

Happiness has always been short term for me. When everything is so calm, there is a sign of something bad would follow. And that's what happened! My darling husband, praveen appeared like a storm from nowhere.

He wasn't in good condition as usual. He was in his inebriated state. I looked at the time. It was early than the time he came. " Hey wifey! I bought my friends home. We are having a party. So I want you to prepare something good.", he said in his not so fluent speech due to alcohol. The strong smell of whiskey from his mouth had travelled towards me, making me distance myself away from him.

"It is already late and I am tired. Why don't you prepare it yourself? ", I protested. It was the first time I had ever argued with him.He got furious and shocked at my retaliation. "Do what I say!" , he growled at me. "She will not do it! Go and do it yourself!", Reena argued. He was surprised at his sister supporting me and stomped out of the room without saying much.

(To be continued)

Consensual-part 16

I had accepted his so called fun ways though I wished he would change. It was heartbreaking to know that I still loved him even when he was verbally abusing me. Maybe I was getting immune to it.

I was preparing evening tea for everyone when my sister in law, Reena barged inside. She quickly rushed to her room. She didn’t let anyone see her red face. But I could catch a glimpse of her pain stricken face. I felt she had some emotional breakdown. Thus I followed her to her room.

She was sitting on the floor with her face covered in her hands. I placed my hand on her shoulder, trying to assure her that I was there for her. She looked at me with longing eyes and bursted out crying. I hugged her and consoled her by rubbing her back. “ It’s okay! I am with you. You can share your pain with me.”, I said softly. After taking some long breaths, she spoke, “ I.. I am not going back! I am not going back to his house. I had enough! I can’t stand!”

Reena was married early to a small businessman’s son. My father in law had thought this was the best family he had searched for Reena. But he failed to understand that they were greedy pigs who only wanted his wealth and not her. He had tried to convince them to accept her by sending large amount of cheques to them. But their demand didn’t end there.

Now they were torturing her to bring more. She was right! This was enough. It had to be stopped. I didn’t realise when Ma and father in law had arrived. I was totally into my thoughts of bringing justice to Reena. They were consoling her and asking her to go back. I don’t know where that feminist in me came from. I stood up and said firmly, “ We must end this. You can see that they are hurting her more. We can’t tolerate any more abuses on Reena akka. ( she was a year older to Praveen)” “ But how can we keep her in our house? Dear, we live in a society where we need to adjust to the social norms. No girl can stay with her parents when she is married.”, Ma said. “ It is also wrong for one to close their eyes on such evil happenings. Dowry is a crime. Why do you care about society? Reena’s safety should be our priority. She is not safe there.”, I said

Ma was about to say something when father in law interrupted in between, “ Shruti is right! Dowry is wrong. We cannot keep blind eye to our daughter’s suffering. Reena will stay here. Tomorrow I will file a case against them.”, he said. “ Thanks Shruti!”, Reena said and hugged me tight.  I felt elated for the first time.

(To be continued )