Tuesday 31 March 2015

Bed of Roses- Part 4


My sister seemed anxious. I knew those words were not meant from heart. She was really concerned about me. But she didn't know that my good will come only if I sacrificed my love for his happiness. And I know that she would stop me for achieving my goal.

I got back to my work. I didn't heed to any of her advice. I know what she would do next. She would meet my Aunt Sheila. She had been our godmother since our parents had given her the responsibility to take care of us. Aunt Sheila has always been instrumental to our lives. She had supported throughout out lives and we looked up to her. With her being involved, I knew I was going to be far away from my dreams. She would never let me do something so crazy like this.

                           ***** Aunt's Sheila's story *****


" Is she crazy? What's wrong with that girl?". I said. My niece shook her head, sharing my same concern. Shirin is sweet and very human. She has always been giving person. She never expected anything from other. She would carry her duties diligently without any assumption that she would get rewarded. Now she was giving up her love for that asshole.

 I hated that guy when I first met her, He was too demanding for her. I knew she wouldn't be able to handle this guy in some point of time, Kids are kids. She didn't listen to me when she plunged into this holy relationship. I still remember the answer she gave when I asked her why she wanted to marry him- " I love him. Our love is too strong to be broken by tiny or big huddles." She smiled .. the confident smile that brought glow whenever she spoke about him.

How could she forget those words? How could she give up easily on her love? Why did she fight aggressively against the world when she was going to leave him in very short time? Did love too have an expiry date like the others - water. land or air? Shirin's divorce would be nothing except that  it would add to increasing divorce rates across the globe.

I cannot let her forgo her marriage for her stupid ideology. She will certainly not go through this process of self pitying or self hurting herself. And that guy who happens to be her husband, I would better remove the veil that has covered his eyes from the love that was pouring from Shirin's heart.

(To be continued)


Monday 30 March 2015

Bed of Roses- Part 3


The list of qualities he always desired in his dream girl was exhaustive. It took me a week to come up with the list. He wanted a girl who could carry out herself without wearing outrageous clothes in front of others. The desired girl should spent time with his family but he should be her top priority. She should listen to him and be independent too. There were contrary.

He wanted everything which was impossible. He wanted traditional as well as modern. He was naive. He wanted a barbie doll with all features. Unfortunately I could never be the one - the barbie doll of his life. Unlike his contrast dream girl, I was comfortable in my casual attire. I didn't crib on not being able to adapt trendy styles. I tried to do things he wanted but I was never successful.

However I will be successful this time. He will be happy with my choice for the first time. So I was done with the list . Now came the tough part- finding the right girl who fitted the dream girl. I searched long and wide. I didn't leave any source untouched.

I looked through the dating sites by registering his details and creating a profile. I didn't find any girl who fitted my list. It is impossible to find a person who fits 100% of your list. I believe if you find atleast 90% of your choice, you are lucky.... most luckiest person in the world.

Days passed. I didn't find the right girl. Everywhere I traveled, I looked out for one. Oh! It was hard to get my husband's dream girl. One fine day, my sister barged in. She grabbed my shoulders and shook me. She condemned for being crazy. " Why are you doing this? Does he know about it?", she asked.

"No he doesn't. He will get to know eventually.", I said softly. " Why?", she cried , breaking every part of my heart. She was like my kid and it was breaking to see her cry. "I don't think I can keep him happy. He needs someone who  will keep him happy forever.", I said nervously searching for words. " You are mad. Hope you don't find her.", she cursed.

(To be continued)

Thursday 26 March 2015

Bed of Roses - Part 2

Problems! Everyone has all sorts of problems. We crib. We get frustrated. We lose hope. We do many things unnecessary and not related to us. We isolate ourselves from the problem but circumstances make us to think over it and find solution. Like everyone, I kept myself inclined to negative thoughts and hopelessness until I found the clue to my puzzle.

The idea struck me when I was watching a movie "Sweet November". It didn't seem similar to my situation. The herione was dying but she left her love only to keep him thinking about happy memories. Well! I certainly wasn't dying. I had no happy memories with him except the one we shared with him. But I wanted to give him something that he could cherish us for years. If this works,he wouldn't complain

I fought against my inner self to come to a conclusion- I was going to find my husband's dream girl. I wasn't going to heaven soon. I was only going to erase my name, presence and memories out of his life. I am sure he will be happy with me gone. Anyway I was a burden to him. He will be relieved from me.

I cried thinking about it. It isn't easy to erase yourself from your love's life. It isn't easy to let your loved one go. It isn't easy at all. I still love him though he doesn't love me anymore. I still can't stay without him though he  can be sometimes pain.

It was toughest decision of my life. I had to make it. I had no choice. I had to free him from such fruitless relationship. I started implementing my plan. The first few days was too difficult. As I developed the plan, I would end up breaking down.

However I would calm my nerves and get back to my plan. I was going to list down the type of girl my husband thought was desirable. I would start searching girls who met those qualities. When I found one , I would bring in situation that could bring them together. Later when everything was set, I would get my husband married.

(To be continued)

Tuesday 24 March 2015

Bed of Roses- Part 1

What is love? Is it always so demanding and taxing? Maybe I was tied in relationship where I had to give more than I was expected. I had always believed that love made your life easy and beautiful. But I never knew that it would take everything... even the peace and happiness seemed lost in life that I chose for myself.


Did I choose in haste? I had chosen marriage over my desire. It was a union orchestrated by us and our parents only blessed us after we had convinced them that our union was made by God. Oh! I was too dumb to believe that our love was enough to keep us together. Dreadful things happens afterwards. There is always an pause between happiness and grief. 

I guess I was too naive to believe he would love me forever till we die. Marriage and love is different things. Love is only an ingredient to keep your marriage going. We were married for five years and still we didn't know each other well enough. Well! It is saying that love develops with years and you learn about someone over years. Unfortunately love was dying between us. There was something between us and we weren't able to find out that missing ingredient.

Maybe it was our difference in taste, lifestyle or desires. I was too simple for him. I didn't qualify anywhere he had desired about his dream girl. I accepted him as he was. I also tried to accept his way of leading life. I thought I had changed for him. Funny! He still mocked me for being the same old college sweetheart who had not grown up. He was miffed at whatever I did from cooking his favorite dish to handling the domestic life.

I.. I never complained for any of his shortcomings. I accepted him wholeheartedly. I didn't care if he was getting grey hair and never bothered to shave his prickly beard. I never complained about him not helping me to do chores after I came home from work. I stayed quiet only because he fulfilled my materialistic needs and stood up for me when others raised their finger at me.

As I thought all this, I didn't see that my coffee had gone cold. However I sipped my coffee. It was tasteless. I spit it out , tainting the crossword puzzle I was solving. "What are you thinking so much?", my sister asked. She had come down to my place for the weekend. " Nothing!", I lied. No one knew or will know what I was going through. I was going to find the solution to this very soon.

(To be continued)

Monday 23 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 17

I turned my face towards where the voice was coming. I also turned my face just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I saw Augustus and Nikki smiling at me. Nikki had restless Buddy in her arms. Wait! She had the dog she had sold out? How was this possible? I looked at her surprised.

Well! I looked at both of them with shock and bewilderment. I prayed that this was not one of God's damn tricks of showing me heavenly dreams. If it was, he would see my terrible wrath lashing out at this poor world.

Augustus clicked his fingers at me. I was back to my senses. "Ah! You are real!", I said, jumping out of excitement. " Yes! We are real.", he said. There was moment of silence and then I broke in, " But you said that you won't ever see me." " Damn You! You know I was not in my senses. When you left, that's when I realized that I was wrong.. really wrong. I wanted to follow you that very day you left. But I had got tickets to come here only for today.. two weeks since you left.", he said

Tears welled up inside my eyes. I didn't want to cry but emotions never listens to anyone. " We are sorry.. I am sorry to always blame you for all the wrong situations.", Nikki intervened. "No.. Please.. I am sorry. I had never accepted you as my sister in law. I always thought you didn't deserve him."I said softly. Nikki hugged me, " You know what I personally bought Buddy as bribe to get you forgive me. I know you loved him so much.". She handed the puppy to me and wiped my tears.

" Come on kiddo! Let's forget and move on. Won't you forgive us?", he asked. I was embarrassed. I should be asking for forgiveness. I didn't even try to stay back and get them back together. I felt like slapping myself for letting them to say sorry when it was me who was supposed to say sorry." Please don't say sorry. I was wrong from the beginning.", I said. " No darling! You did what every sweet sister would do for their brother. Now stop repenting. What you did was purely love for me and don't stop loving me.", Augustus said, brushing my hair.

I cried. After a lot of cuddling and convincing from both, I kissed my past goodbye and promised to start anew. "So will you be my best man... ahem.. woman for my wedding. The post is still open.", he said. I stared at him and then looked at Nikki.  " What are you looking at? Say yes! I am not going to stop you.",  Nikki said animatedly. I smiled at last and nodded my head.


                                 ******  The End ******

Thursday 19 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 16

I reached home with heavy heart.  I was spending most of my time at my den in isolation. I refused to let anyone inside my room. Mum was worried. She had never seen me in state of helplessness and desperation. I was lost in world of despair.

Things were going normally around me. People who called themselves my friends resumed to their normal activities after they lost hope of bringing me back. However mum didn't stop. She would enter my room without heeding the warning sign that read- Don't step in, sleeping monster. And monster in me would constantly fight against her for getting out.

I was abnormal. I couldn't get out of grief or depression. I loathed myself for being immature.. for breaking a nest that was built with lot of love. How could I do this? Every time I thought about it, I repented on what I did. I would scold myself for doing it.

Everyone tried to cheer me up. But my heart was too shallow to feel happy again. I couldn't forgive myself for what I did. I was angry and sad. No one could make me normal again.

The day of redemption had arrived. It was a normal day for me. I was in my room, repenting as usual. I was in my own world of self destruction. I wished that I could replay those moments again and change it forever. But time doesn't belong to us, it is free spirit creating moments good and bad. 

I heard mum calling my name. I thought I was dreaming when I heard soft taps on my room. I didn't bother to open the door as I assumed that it was mum who was calling me for dinner. I had no appetite for food now and ever. "Kiddo! Wake up!", a voice called. It was the voice I had been waiting to hear so long. "Aren't you out of this jet leg thing? I am surprised that it has been a month and you are not over it.", a  satirical tone said and I realized who it was. But it didn't irritate me.

(To be continued)

Wednesday 18 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 15b

He didn't speak to me. It would always take few minutes for his temper to cool down. He was not someone who would ever get angry at someone. Even if he ever got angry at me, his heart melt in milliseconds. But this was unusual. He had kept himself in solitude. 

Whenever he saw me accidentally, he would turn his gaze at something else. He was ignoring me. This was his way of punishing me. I accepted it without even trying to cool him down. What right did I have when I was the one who wrecked his marriage? But I didn't like it. I couldn't take his cold behaviour. This punishment was like an torment to me. So I decided to leave. I packed my bag and booked tickets for the next flight

I felt guilty... a feeling that never left me since Nikki left him. My immatureness costed me lot. I lost my long time friend..my brother... a precious part of my soul. Now I felt very empty without him. I was boarding afternoon flight. It was right time when he would be busy at work and I would silently leave. I wasn't going to wish him goodbye.

It was sunny afternoon. There was no single cloud dancing in the sky. The traffic was too much for normal day like today. I hadn't expected. I had three hours though in my hand. I was spending it on the bustling traffic instead of cool indoors of the airport. High volume of the music from the iphone blared in my ears. However it didn't take me away from my problems.

I was still thinking about it. I had put a small note on the table. It read- I am sorry. I am leaving you forever from burden called me. The words still pained me whenever I remembered. What would have happened if I had told him that I was leaving? Would he leave me to the airport? Would he stop me? Maybe he would escort me without saying goodbye.

I reached the airport. Everything happened so quickly that I didn't have time to think. The customs and the depature .. everything happened too fast. I wanted to stay back. I wanted to tear my boarding pass and run away. But I didn't . I continued my journey to home. I wished that Augustus would call me back. He didn't come.I was disheartened.

(To be continued)

Tuesday 17 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 15

They were talking in whispers. Soon the calm conversation turned into commotion. I could see both of them pointing fingers at each other or raising them in thin air. Something was not going right. I decided against my consciousness to stay back.

Everyone were looking at our table at those two fighting. I had prayed that it shouldn't go bad. But I didn't expect it to go worse like this. Oh I wish I hadn't brought them here. God! What should I do now? I ran towards them. I had to take charge of this issue.

My heart was beating faster as I came closer to them. I gulped and searched for my voice. I was scared to highest point. I thought if they met face to face at least once , they would sort it out in a matured way. They were fighting here. They were blaming each other and bringing in more misunderstanding between themselves.

" Please Nikki, I am sick and tired of your drama.  Leave us alone. We have come here to enjoy dinner. Please don't spoil that.", he said. " What do you mean? You called me .. You called me so that we could sort out our issues.", she said, surprised and angry at the same time.  He looked confused. "I called you?", he asked. I stepped in before things go worse to worst. " I invited her.", I said softly looking down. 

Both were shocked. " How dare you? You sent me the mail as Augustus.  What don you want now?  Aren't you happy separating us?", she asked coldly.  I could see the rage in her eyes. I tried to ignore them. " I am sorry. I love my brother. I didn't feel you were the one that he should be spending his life. But I have realised my mistake and I know that you guys love each other. Your mail said it all. If you weren't , then you would be spending more time in finding a new love for yourself.", I said.

Augustus walked out on us. He was mad at me.. mad at her too. I excused myself and followed him. When I was too close, I grabbed his hand. I begged for forgiveness. He pulled his hand out of my grip. He didn't listen and scolded me, " I am ashamed of you. Don't .. Don't ask for anything. Leave me alone"  I felt the pain in his voice and wished that I hadn't  intervened in his life.

(To be continued)

Monday 16 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 14

Love is sweet and the wait is bitter. The wait can be for the positive response from your loved one or the wait can also be for meeting your loved one after long time. Well!! The wait can also be for reuniting two love birds. Hmm.. I have been waiting for over 180 seconds. However these seconds were like never ending hours. Oh! How long can anyone take to read an email?

God must have heard my loud moan. As soon as I finished crying loud, " How long can anyone take to read an email?", I heard 'ting' noise. It was the sound of the a mail that was dropped to my inbox. I quickly scanned it. Oh! it was from her.  I immediately read the contains of the mail. 

She had written that she will meet him. She had also mentioned how much she had missed him and wanted to give another chance to their relationship. I was happy and yelled loud. Suddenly he opened the door to see what was happening. I immediately logged out and opened my mailbox. 

"What happened?", he asked. " Nothing! I just won two coupons to RiverPark. You know I wanted to visit that place. Can we please... please.. pretty please go there?", I said. "No, my darling. Why don't you take one of your friends? I am not in mood of going anywhere.", he said which made my heart ache. I looked down without saying anything. He saw my red face. " Fine.. We will go.", he said , caressing my cheek. I was euphoric at once.

The truth behind those coupons was that I had not won any competition. I wanted to go to RiverPark because I had called her to meet him here. I prepared every tiny details to bring them together. Tomorrow I shall reunite these two and then only I would leave RiverPark after I had completed my mission. 

I took him to that place. He was dressed in casual black T shirt and blue jeans. I was in my daisy dress. As soon we reached, I looked around for her. She was nowhere to be found. We sat down for dinner. I ate half halfheartedly. It didn't take us long to finish her dinner. It was really quiet dinner. No one was in mood to speak anything until she arrived. I wanted to jump. But I made an excuse to use ladies room. I looked at our table while walking.  They met with sadness in their eyes.

(To be continued)

Thursday 12 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 13

Oh my Gosh!! What I have done? When I came home, I saw the great Augustus crying. The only time I had seen him crying was when all my cousins had ignored him at the time when he was introduced by my uncle as his son. I saw him in same situation years ago and had promised myself that I would never let him break down. Now I had broken my promise. I had made him cry.

As I walked closer to him to console him, he had heard my footstep and rose up. He slowly wiped his tears while cautiously seeing whether I had not seen his tears. Well! I pretended as if I had not seen him cry.He was surprised to see me. I didn't ask him what had happened. Instead I let him ask me the question, " What happened? Why didn't you join Aunty?" " I have some errands to do. So I dropped her and stayed back.", I replied.

He looked at me suspiciously. I spoke suddenly to change his mind, " Don't worry! I will leave as soon as I am done. I won't burden you more." He nodded his head and smiled softly, " Don't say that! You are not burden to me. You are my darling child. You can stay here as long as you want" . I left him as I couldn't let the guilt tear me more.I started my mission. I hacked his mail ID as well as his social ID. I checked  social sites and his email whether there was any correspondence to her mail ID.

Unfortunately lot of time had been wasted in checking his social profile. He had been inactive since he had last proposed her for marriage. He had not even changed his status. The most startling part was that even she had not changed her status. This only meant that they were still in love. Oh lovely god! This also meant that there was golden chance that I could reunite them forever. 

I was happy again. Sometimes happiness can get doubled. But those times are very rare and that's why we call it as miracle. I was checking his mails and I saw one mail in draft. It was for her. Oh the words! They were filled with love. I reread it more than zillion times to make me believe he was still in love with her and wanted her back. It seemed that he was scared to send.  So this time I was playing the cupid. I sent it to her with little amendments made in the letter. I asked her to meet him if she still loved him. Before sending, I checked whether she was online. And she was online. A good sign that something will definitely happen

I waited for her response. Oh the wait! It is terrible. Now I understand how men feel when they desperately wait to get an answer from their prospective girlfriend or love. When they reply positively, it tends to add cherry to their effort of wooing the girl of their dreams. Well I felt the same now though I wasn't wooing anyone and I was not a man. Every single minute I refreshed the mailbox. I didn't want him to check his mailbox first. So I checked whether he was in the hall ,checking his mailbox. Fortunately he wasn't there. After fifteen terrible minutes, I received a mail from her.

(To be continued)

Wednesday 11 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 12

I had to bring them back. It is strange that I was thinking like this. Few months back, I was the one who would go to any extent to break their relationship. Now, here I am mending their relationship. Oh why? Augustus was supposed to be happy.. relieved at last. 

Augustus has been sitting for too long with the pain. He didn't ..never shared anything when he was in pain. He would never let me know about what was going through in his heart. I had always seen him sharing his pain with Nikki. I was jealous as he would never share painful feelings with anyone even if for her.
 
Anyway, love was the only solution to heal his heart. I hadn't heard anything about Nikki. Nikki must have been wounded badly. She would never leave the page 3 after any sad or happy incident. After her break off, she hadn't poured out her pain in public. Where hell she had gone? They cannot give up on love now. 

I will bring them together. An irony that hit my heart so bad. I had to do it now before it was too late. A week had passed and there is still few days for the wedding. I had to get this two love birds married on the date they had planned.

It was time to leave. I had not told my plans to mum. She had no clue that I was only dropping her to airport and not accompanying her home. As soon as I dropped her near the entrance, I hugged her and said goodbye. She pulled my ear and asked," Where are you going, young lady?" " I have some errands to complete. I will come as soon as I am done with the work.", I said. She understood and refused to leave without me. 

I begged her to let me go. I also tempted her with various offers of meeting the boys she had selected for my wedding. I also promised that I wasn't going to do anything foolish. She didn't listen until I knelled down with tears coming out of my eyes. Her heart melted and she said, " Go child! Fix these two love bird's nest. Don't break them again." I hugged her and kissed her cheeks before telling her goodbye.I began my mission of reuniting the love birds.

( To be continued)

Tuesday 10 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 11

Guilty tortured my heart. I felt I was somehow responsible for their distant relationship. After that fight both there was some kind of cold bitter air blowing between them. None of them tried to bridge the gap. They were bringing in lot of unnecessary issues. It was as if no one wanted to bend before anyone. They were fixed about their opinions. 

They had parted ways finally. When they were asked the reason for such decision, they blamed it on the incompatibility. Love is strange. When it happens, everything seems beautiful  and life is easy. But as the taste of love gets bitter, it tends to make life tasteless. Everything you set for becomes impossible to achieve. Maybe that's the power of what love can do to you.

I should have partied somewhere. I didn't. I had always thought I would get tipsy till four am. But I didn't feel like getting out or turning wild. I sat home , thinking about the events that had broken their relationship. I didn't know that I would feel so bad about breaking a relationship though I hadn't. It was just the situation that parted two people who were deeply in love. 

Days passed and nothing had changed. I still refused to get out of the room. I was still brooding over it. How could I be so immature in breaking their beautiful relationship? I asked my soul this question every day and night. I had no answer for this. 

Augustus was in pain. He had become so quiet and robotic in his life. He would hardly speak. He would come home, have his food and lock himself in his room. If I hadn't messed this up, they would have got married by next week.

The life .. the spirit.. the happiness was all gone. The house had become just place to stay. Mum was planning to leave. She had also asked him to join. But he refused plainly. I didn't want to leave him in this state. I had to do something.

(To be continued)

Monday 9 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 10

Mum didn't realize my motive still. She doubted me but couldn't prove her doubts. She made me promise on all the gods residing in this planet that I will never ever do the sin of breaking anybody's marriage even if it is my worst enemy marrying an alien. Ah! Whatever! I would be happiest if my enemy married the wrong guy. Anyway I made false promises. I was not going to stop.

Nikki understood it clearly. How did she get to know? Well! My luck turned bad when she overheard mum asking me to make false promises of not breaking the marriage. Adding to her suspicions was when Nancy had called me home. Unfortunately I wasn't present to take the call. So Ms. Nikki who would never pick up calls, picked it up today. Nancy spilled out the beans to her without even checking who it was.

When I had come home after visiting some old friends, I found her sitting with cross leg on her favorite bright red sofa. Her eyes gleamed of anger. If Augustus was not my brother, I guess she would have torn me apart. There was a dangerous frown on her face." I know why you are here but I will never allow you to succeed. You have tried to light the fire on my love life behind my back. Now you won't succeed.",she said.

The conflicts between Nikki and Augustus had become common. However one of these conflicts bought a turn on their relationship. As the fight turned wild, she pushed me into this mess. She accused blindly at me when I hadn't done anything. Since the time my mum had arrived, her presence was enough to create difference between them. It wasn't my mum's fault. Nikki was not used to words called gentle, respect or love. She was simply mistaken by lust with love.

Augustus slapped her. For the first time, I felt his love for me. I had thought I had lost his love due to Nikki's presence in his life. I had longed his attention. Seeing his brotherly love, I felt so proud of him.

Mum scolded her. No one questioned me. They blamed her for being too rude and incoherent. My heart ached. I didn't feel good. I didn't smile secretly in my heart. My conciousness scolded me. I was feeling guilty for whatever was happening to Nikki though she deserved it.

(To be continued) 

Thursday 5 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 9

Mum had arrived before than the rest of family members. She had arrived early as she thought an elder was needed to guide youngsters with the preparations. She didn't trust us. She still considers us as the kids who were born yesterday.  Anyway her early arrival was a boon to me. With mum's arrival, everything I desired I got it served in golden plate. 

Augustus was very excited with her arrival. He had spent the first day of her visit only by eating her head with how much he had missed her. Since mum was here, she took over the house. The house was now no longer just a place to stay. Mum had filled it with her love and care. Unfortunately someone was burning inside though she couldn't vent it out.

Mum's constant interruption made Nikki go mad.She had made Nikki shift to my room. As per mum's rule, a lady is not supposed to stay with guy in same room... or to make more clear same roof. But Nikki didn't agree to this until he made both of them agree to shift the terror ( Nikki) to my room. Nikki was still fuming with rage.

Nikki hated mum instantly. Mum was known for her nagging. Since Nikki was used to dumping the household chores to Augustus. I used to see how poor Augustus used to manage the work. I used to help him though he would never let me do it. But mum always believed in equal share of work. So she made everyone help in with the house work.

Tiny rifts was normal between them. But they became more with every passing day. The always silent Augustus was revolting against Nikki. It was hard for her to digest. As usual mum was about to step in but I didn't let her. She tried questioning me. I told her that it was their life. 

Mum called me crazy to stop her.  I told her that sometimes it is good to to be crazy. She simply stared at me with suspicious. Maybe she did get to know that I didn't leave my idea.

(To be continued) 

Wednesday 4 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 8

With buddy gone, I was lost. The only hope was gone. How was I going to break this wedding. Augustus had reconciled all the differences with her. Worst part - he was the one to go forward to rekindle their relationship. Arggh! I hate him for doing that. I scolded him for losing self respect for that wrecked lady. 

I had to find another option. I cannot see my brother lose his individuality for someone who doesn't care of the existence. I don't see my brother now. My brother always stood for his right. Now I see a different person who bent down to other's whims. This was last time I would see him bending. 

I started missing family. You need your family when you are in deep shit... when you feel . what they said was right. Mom.. I missed her a lot. I missed her food. I missed her voice. Oh mom! Mom!!! Why didn't think about this first. She could be loud, obnoxious and irritating person. Indian ladies are known to be that. She fitted the role so well.

I called her immediately. As usual I heard her nasty scoldings during the first few minutes. It went on until she was done with her share of complaints about why I did that and how I should improve. Later she gave me time to speak about why I really called her. I asked her when she was coming and how much Augustus wanted family to be part of the wedding. She was positive about family coming. This solved my problem. But I hid the secret part from them. 
They knew that I had come here for solely to break the marriage. But after few days, they were in false belief that I had given up. Love is risky. But risk can also be good. I know bringing in family into this wasn't good. But I can't help it if it was going to help me.

I had to do this to save him. I can't see him tortured by her whims every day. They were different and had to be broken. If I didn't do now, he would lose everything to save this relationship and I can't see that.

( To be continued)

Tuesday 3 March 2015

The Best (WO)man- Part 7

The dog bought needed chaos to their life. I should have named him as entropy instead of buddy. He was notoriously in his best bad behaviour. It wasn't that Buddy was bad. He was a sweetheart. But he bought lot of pain to her and that's what I wanted.

Indeed it was relief. I didn't have to do the mess. Buddy did that for her. Oh how much I love him for doing this. Every sweet antics of his won my heart while caused terrible tantrums from her. She hated the dog and she hated me too.

I remember the day we bought her. As soon as he came, she shifted to her den. She didn't like the sight of it though she didn't complain until he leapt out towards her room when we put him on the ground. Oh he loves exploring and like any curious dog, he had walked fearless into her room. It was a sight to see her standing on the bed and shooing loudly at the poor dog. But Buddy wasn't going to stop there. He peed at the door as if to show her who the boss was. This irked more temper from her. 

Buddy followed her everywhere. He followed her to the kitchen, to the bedroom, to the lounge or even to the bathroom. It was like as if he had shared some connection towards her. Or maybe it was just the way she acted when he was around. Oh I loved it.

One fine day when no one was not at home,Buddy, the mischievous one started to act like the one of three musketeers. He jumped on the sofas and tore the cushions. He had learned to open the fridge door with his paws. He dirtied the kitchen. And not the least, it excreted on her favorite cotton blanket. 

When she came back home, she was very angry.  That very day she returned the dog back to the store. Augustus didn't like this. How could she send Buddy back without even checking with him (leave me)? This hit us bad. 

(To be continued)